Omnivore?

This is going to be a longer post so bear with me. Self-reflective post:

I have been vegan pretty consistently for 2.5 years now, and have had my ups and downs. I’ve learned an enormous amount about how to keep my diet balanced and full of nutrients. I also had EXTREMELY good blood analysis results, nutrients were beyond amazing (I was surprised to be honest, so I’m not just tooting my own horn). I’ve never had problems with B12 or iron, or Omegas. I also went raw for a period, and felt AMAZING, by DOING IT RIGHT. So, now, looking back, I’m starting to consider going back to an omnivorous diet, and that feeling awesome all has to do with doing it right. I’m not exactly sure why, but it feels right right now, and I think the reason I want to is because I feel so much more equipped to keep myself healthy than 2.5 years ago. I've also been reading a lot and rethinking my philosophy on being vegan. It is not as strong as it used to be, and I've been finding rightness in eating certain non vegan foods.

The moral reasons were never a huge motivator for being vegan; it was mostly health related beliefs that drove it. Those beliefs I have been questioning, and I guess I am going to explore my curiosities. I'm going to continue my experiment on healthy living. I feel the need to explain myself though, which I don't like. As I was told before: justification is an excess. I agree with this, but clearly contradict myself. I feel the need to justify because I have been labeled "The Vegan" here at school, and generally. I hate it when people look at me and say "That's not vegan!! You can't eat that!" I can eat what I please thank you very much. And my focus has been more toward balance, health, and fitness, more so than loving the animals or restricting myself.

Another thought that has always been in the back of my mind is that I like restrictions. I think I like to keep restrictions and high standards on myself not necessarily for any particular reason, and veganism may have become associated with that need. While it did make me feel better than before, I started eating better than before, so it makes sense that eating better generally would make me feel good. It is an experiment, and a continual process.

I’ve recently found myself missing things that I treasured as an omnivore. Food has been a passion of mine since I was young, and I think I am rediscovering that love more and more after a period of having mixed feelings and some bad experiences.

SO! here I am now, and we will see what happens and where I go!